I see bright stars in the dark

Last week was the most dreadful week that I had ever gone through in my entire life, at least for now. It was as if I fell into a 6 feet deep dark pit and there was a powerful dark force that chained me from climbing up. Hmm. That's how miserable those days were. I couldn't sleep well every night. A sweet delicious peanut butter flavor baskin robin' s ice cream couldn't even make me feel better.

On the first day, I let my senior down by telling her I hate my job, I wanted to quit. She's the one who hired me and she was impressed on how I sold myself during the interview. I don't take marketing class for nothing. However, tst tst tst... when she threw the task to me, I realised that it was not my strenght at all. I couldn't do it. Quickly, I drafted out lots of plans to runaway. Like telling them I got hit by a car or somebody kidnapped me or just simply disappear. These are some stupid things I could think of when I was desperate. But, I knew that there was nothing can be done. I was too stubborn to quit. Life goes on.

But you know what. I am different now after working for the second week. Slowly, I adapt to the stressful environment.Instead of venting my dissatisfation by letting every one that I came across know how much I hated my job, I began to accept it. Why don't, with my strenght and might, I focus my energy on seeing the brighter side of it. Additionally, there are so many people who care for me gave me lots of encouragement. A simple word of "don't give up on yourself" kept me going. I couldn't thank them enough. I am so blessed to have these people in my life. So, Anna is A OKAY from now onwards. I guess I just loosed the chain and lift myself up. What I can do is wake up every morning and tell myself that

I love my job I proudly say
I love it more and more each day
I love my boss and her bosses and the people who share my pain
I love all tasks and don't mind doing them again and again
So, just get up and make it there.

I am working this weekend too. But, as property promoter. It's funny to see there are people out there who are rich enough to shop for houses like they are buying a pair of shoe.

Alright. I want to take a short one hour power nap now before starting to do some paperwork.

Seriously, truly and honestly, I prefer working than going out. I like having something to do.

New rule of living : Work like you don't need money, love like you've never been hurt, dance like no one is watching.

Cheers.