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Rained when I was walking back home.
No umbrella and no shed. Today is officially a bad day for me. But, I don't feel anything at all.
My mind was blank. I am not happy with things I do, I just stay numb.
I saw a man on the street wearing a pink t-shirt said " Don't Give Up". Cute. I wish it was mine.
I dragged myself into a pile of mud which I don't know how to swim my up.
Every minute every second I keep telling myself that I must quit this job but I just couldn't. How can I give up without trying. This my third day and I am still down under.
I felt incompetent. What ever I written here. It's just SHIT. I feel like SHIT.
I just want you to know, I need you now.

horrendous day at work

Now listening to Fotografia by Juanes and Nelly Furtado

Why?

>Location for this weekend is Jaya33. Hmm... on weekend, this place is kinda quiet. So, there is not many people for me to approach. However, there are a lot of wealthy people here. It's really interesting to see how they behave :P


>Felicia, my co-worker/supervisor (fuyooh... sudah naik pangkat) is sick and she still have to work. I felt bad for her.

Hey world, this is Felicia (right). Since this weekend will be my final days as Sime Darby property promoter, I told tell Felicia honestly, what I thought about her. She's a really really really nice girl. *she bluhsed*. Yes, it's true. While I was with her, I can't feel any bad aura surrounding her presence. Plus, she's almost same tall as me, so, we clicked well. hehe. And she is a very positive person. Like, no matter how negative the responses from the customer or how hot is the weather outside, a smile and some words of encouragement from her will actually cast away all the problems. Basically, she is the reason that make my job fun :)

I bought a sandwich from Subway but I have no appetite to eat it. Will just save it for breakfast tomorrow.

This is just a random post.

Miss, are you Chinese?

Yup, I have people asking me that very often.
I worked in Jalan Yap Kwan Seng this afternoon.
I dare to say that there are more than 10 people who actually asked me "you're Chinese?".
They thought I was malay, siamese of just the face of One Malaysia.

Cheers.

We are jobless but we have time

I took my own sweet time walking outside without worrying about sunlight burning my skin.
Today is a cloudy day. Random fact about me, " I*heart* rain.
At this point of time, I am unemployed. Guess who is in the same shoe as me? Evelyn

She's my friend/senior/ex-colleague in PwC (Pricewaterhousecoopers), the place where I did my internship for three months last year. Well, she's not really unemployed because she's working as assistant researcher for her lecturer. Evelyn accepted an offer from Long Beach, LA for masters program. Flying over to the States in August. *Cheers*.

Overall, my laid back day consist of meeting Evelyn and together we picked up Jamie from the office for dinner. Jamie used to be Eve's colleague. It was pleasant conversation with them and I get one or two advices about work from the two big sisters :) Thanks !!

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In addition to that, I found a treasure hidden in one of the shoe boxes which was labelled as "Anna's Stuffs" in the afternoon.

Wern Hwei made this for me four years ago when we were in form 5. Oh, how I miss those days.

too bad Wern Hwei, you still don't get the opportunity to meet my bf.

I am going to miss you and your pretended bimboness. Now you're probably berkelabing with Sharon and getting to know some ang mo lang.

Sleepy. Yawn. Good night world.

Dim sum for breakfast

I had dim sum at Damansara Jaya with Jasmine, Hui-Ling, Gan and Tan this morning.
Finally, we get the chance to meet after we came back from St. Cloud. Yay!!
But I put on a sleepy face today because I slept at 4am and I had to wake up at 7.30am. I don't remember whose brilliant suggestion to have breakfast at 8.30am.


These are called dim sum, to those who don't know what are they.





Jasmine, my sister in Lawrence Hall and my food provider.

Hui-Ling, Gan and Tan.

These people are really hilarious. I never had breakfast laughing my lungs out like this before.

Hope to meet you all again, before you head back to St. Cloud leaving me behind. Sob sob.

Working Friday

Today is one of the few days where it rain in the morning. Do you know how nice to sleep in a cool rainy morning. The best time to be lazzzzzy. But, I just have to wake up to work. Many people start their horrible working life on Monday. However, I work over the weekends. There is no "thank God it's Friday" for me. And I have my weekdays freeeeeee.

Wake up wake up Anna, you have properties to promote!!!!!!

Materials to study before work. I want to play smart when customer ask me anything, I will have the answers beforehand. What if I can't answer them? I would just say, "you can just go to the sales galleries that you're interested or give them a call". No worries at all.

I was so energetic in the afternoon as I tried to approach as many people as possible. I was just in a happy mood. So, today ended up being a great day and time passes really fast at work.

My brother is so kind that he willingly pick me up from work. Hmmm, well, not willingly to be honest, because I keep manja-ing with him, telling him that I am the only sister he has over the phone..kukuku..

Then we went to the new Empire Shopping Gallery and had dinner in Nyonya Colours. No matter what, I still think eating real nyonya food in Melaka is the best.

My brother bought a mini cooper model to add to his collections of car. What a waste of money.

O h H O M E

I love to be lazzzzzy.
Today is the kind of day where I can wear my comfy baggy t-shirts.
Wake up and never have to put on my make up.
Ran two rounds at the park.
Took a cool shower.
Listen to my favourite musics on my computer.
I played The Show by Lenka over and over again.
Stalk on peoples' blog and facebook :) kukukukuku
Cook a simple meal but not instant noodle simply because I have to live a healthier life.

I guess this is my biggest accomplishment for today. Psst...Sherryn is the provider of the broccoli. It's a funny gift and I shall remember forever.

It is a sunny day (it is sunny every day in Malaysia) and I want to take some pictures.

The little pink flower in my garden bloom beautifully this morning. Finally.

We have sweet smelling jasmine too :)

After that, I just sit in front of my laptop and chat with a bunch of friends virtually.

Their frequaently asked questions are:

1. How are you?

I am good. Thank you. Thank you.

2. What are you doing now?

Just stay at home lo and make use of the Internet.

3. Any changes after you came back from US?

Yes, fatter, tanner and slanger. Why I am not fairer? because I like to sunbath like the ang mo langs.

4. Your friends are flying off to UK tonight, are you sending them off?

Nope, I don't want to say goodbye. They will be fine because it's gonna be like vacation for them. Don't flunk anything. Girls, bring back some ang mo lang. Guys, bring me back some souvenirs, I want LV, Prada, Channel etc etc. hehehe. I'm kidding. Just have a whale of time there. Experience everything of anything

5. How's your job hunting process?

Waiting for reply. And I am going to stay positive but not too over lah because I really don't know who would wanna hire me.

6. Where is your life?

Here, I am still alive.. This is a life and I am loving it.

And I watched an episode of Friends. The one where they talk about Ross is getting the 3rd divorce. Chandler and Monica were trying to tell their friends that they are moving in together.

I am so gonna miss my friends. Those in US, those in their own countries, those who are going to UK and those who are in Malaysia but I don't get the chance to meet. Okay, stop, to myself; don't you dare try to be emotional. We can't turn back time or press Crtl+Z. Life goes on whether you like it or not.

Staying alone at home and trying to find things to do to keep me occupied might look pathetic to you. But NO, I have company :) Even though he is not physically presence but it feels like it. We just have conversations about everything and nothing. Thank God for MSN and Skyppe!!!

Alright, now he is asleep because it's freaking night time in US. So, I am going to continue watching Friends. And I feel like cleaning the mess in my room today. I am tired of being lazzzzzy now. Let's do something productive.

A date with Sherryn

This is just a random picture I took this morning :)

Highlight of today is meeting with Leong aka Sherryn. It is not easy to make appointment with this girl, she's to busy building her career :) Today, kononnya she is sick and on medical leave. So, why not I just take this chance to meet her.

We talked about everything and anything. And I just thought of a new nickname for her, " suddenly hug me from behind girl." It's an inside joke. I don't think she would let me expose it here.

The thing that brighten up my day is when she message me after the meet saying " Hey darling. I'm so happy spending the evening with you. Hope to see you again soon. ' Likewise Leong.

Oh, she bought a broccoli for me too. Thanks :)

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I found a quote that I really love today. " If there is tomorrow when we're not together..there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i will always be with you." By Winnie The Pooh. Don't you just love that bear.

Well, this blog is really something long lost forgotten. I was avoiding it but there is no place that I can hide from it. I am back to my real KL life. Sometimes, I wake up feeling a little confused and frustrated. Nothing scares me more than my own future. That's my secret. I no longer know what I am doing anymore.

There are too many changes that I have to deal with lately and I pressed the ignore button too many times. Every undone to-do things just accummulated and it makes me feel incredibly angry with myself for not accomplishing them. The truth is, I don't really like the state of now. I don't know why I don't have the joy of doing things that I used to do anymore. No more manga, looking for food, clubbing, yum cha, shopping and so on. Yes, I miss the old me and I just can't find that girl anymore. I laugh and smile but I feel they are fake. Something change inside of me but I don't know what. That's right, these are making me lost. How could somebody don't understand himself/herself like I do. Strange.

So, school is going to start in October. My lovely brother keep asking me to look for job. I have a job as freelancer but he wanted me to do something normal and better. The types where you are suppose to be in the office, Monday to Friday, from 9am till 5pm. Many times, while working over the weekends, I just thought to myself that I really need to get some valuable experience. Doing more freelance jobs makes me feel so stupid because those are no-brainer and unchallenging. Fuck the money. I decided to try to get any low paying internship. Honestly, I don't know which company would wanna hire me. Let's send out more application tomorrow. Not janji kosong.

I have to make this blog alive again.